Saturday, July 30, 2005
Today is towards e end of e 1 wk hols le n it seems like it was nv thr. Got tests comin up, 1 on Mon n 2 on Wed n a report to submit-all nt done yet. Don know wat i hv been doin this whole week also. Anyway i gotta study le; don wanna help helpless jus like my materials test on Mon.
Went to Tuas yest to get the quotations for our cabinet for FYP with Nic, Emi n Tootz. Reached Boon Lay at 1350 n we took a cab down to e 1st company. Thn abt 1445 took cab to e next destination. Upon arrival, tootz PS us n took e cab back to Boon Lay as she was late for her date(hey rem to show me ur neoprint ehz..=P). After visitin e 2nd company, e 3 of us walked along e main road hopin for a cab to driveby but thr was none in sight. It was quite horrible walkin in e sun in long pants, a heavy bag n a racket but i guess its nt tt bad compared to nic havin scrap his knee by steppin into e drain while chasing e bus. After walkin for 45 min, a small comercial lorry stopped for us after Nic showed e hitchhike hand signal. We hope on to e back of the lorry n boy was e aluminium floor hot. After abt 15 min, e driver droped us off at e bus stop. Really had to thank e driver if nt i guess we will still be walkin manz...=X E bus arrived n e driver said it will take abt 20 min to reach Boon Lay so we decided to hop on, takin tt e previous time we took e bus ride was 55 min. In e end we reached in only abt 10 min. Nic n Emi went to Pak Tor at JP while i went back to sch for trainin.
At SP, ate a slice of wholemeal bread(My Fav!!) tat i brought frm home n went up to Biz lib to return tootz' bk. Came back to court n finished e other 2 slices. Trainin was open; train jus abt anything we can think of laz.. Thn played with Jie Wei, lost to him terribly, guess i am gettin worse le. At e end of trainin, almost e whole team went out for dinner at Clementi except me. Smsed Dad b4 trainin end n he said tat he got dinner for me so i hv to eat at home. Hey Guys, next Fri k??
Felt quite weird going home alone after trainin so took out my notez n read thru. Reached SK at 2300. Saw 156 comin by. normally i will take 159 but i wanna go home n eat dinner asap so i jus take 156. It'll still take me home but at a diff bus stop n it was e 1st time i took it. Was lookin at e brochure for e bus to c which stop to get off. Guess it was cos most bus stops were empty so e bus didnt stop. B4 i knew it, i missed my stop le. Thn i took all e way to Bishan. It was quite temptin to jus go back to TPY but i know i cant laz. So went to Bishan station and took train to AMK thn took 74 back home. Reached home at 1230. Sux manz, spent 2 hours travellin.
At home, bathe. Felt v gd after bathin. Drank soup n ate e dishes as thr was no rice(miscommunication with mum). Thn ate e durian puffs n bread tt mum bought. While eatin, watched Initial D. I don know y ppl say tat its nt nice but to me, it was great. Slp at abt 2am after chattin with tootz.
Today, was 20 min late in actin e role of an alarm clock. V tired. I dragged myself out of bed. Watched Initial D as i ate my breakfast. Played with Yong Hui(YQ bro) at e friendly btw Nobels n SA at Cherryhill condo n i won!! Was quite unexpected. It was tough but i guess my effort of reachin for every ball paid off. In e end e Nobels won...=)
Was rainin heavily after tt. Went off with YQ and WX. Now at home...V tired..Guess i will be going to slp soon, abt 30 min. Thn study ( ok la, i try). =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 3:15 PM ))
Monday, July 25, 2005
From previous entry : "Jus tt sometimes i try to deceive myself tt i don really care so tt e pain wont be tat unbearable. I knw tat all this is jus a fascade. Its temporary but its better thn nth i guess...At least for now baz. "
Quite true ehz. It didnt last for long cos i knw tat tat is not e case and its quite hard being on e stage all e time. Took a break frm acting last 2 days n said wat i need to say. Actually i would really prefer to knw e truth, no matter how horrible it is rather than to be kept in e dark. Anyway, after sayin wat i had on my mind, i am feelin better le. Sometimes we jus hav to see e brighter side of life. Thr r so much more beautiful things in life to admire. I hav learned to step out of darkness and smell e fresh air, So can u.. =)
Anyway had squash camp last weekend. It was great manz!! Really had alot of fun. It has been a long time since tat. It could hav been better if i didnt hav test today n was forced to leave on Sat nite. Had alot of bonding opportunities n enjoyment. On e whole, it was jus great...=) Got to go for lab le, talk to you guys another day...See yaz!! =)
PS Ehz toot, take care of yourself ...Shi Jiu Sui le ehz...Worse thn my 2 yr old cousin...=P
My BaBy DiNo
(( 1:03 PM ))
Monday, July 18, 2005
It has been 1 week le. I really don knw wat 2 write. Has been on and off lately. I ran 2 days ago on Sat with YS. It was e 1st time i felt so weak n helpless. It was e 1st time i had 2 c her figure gettin smaller n smaller as e gap widened in front of me. And whn i forced myself to catch up, i felt my legs aching n had breathing difficulties. My hands felt cold n numb. Had a spinnin headache tat forced me to break into a walk. I was practically walkin e whole way. Wats happenin 2 me??
E next day-Sunday, i was feelin rather weak. Slp for 9 hours e nite b4. After breakfast, slp 4 another hour. After lunch, watched Spiderman 2 on DVD. Then went to slp again. Thn as e Sun set, i was havin fever le. All e way till 10pm, i was slpin on and off. At 10, forced myself to complete report. Drank tons of water n prayed tat i don fall sick again. Thn only at 1230 had i went to slp.
Today, I was feelin fine. Jus a typical Monday. Guess its must hav been e over excessive slp tat i had yest tat made me quite alert but it didnt last quite long. At abt 4 plus, i fell aslp in front of e com at e lab. Till now, i have been feelin v weak. Legs still achin. Guess i wont be going 4 squash tml. Suddenly it seems to me tat thr r much more thn to compete in e IVP, tat playin n being amongst e best didnt seem tat impt anymore.
Had been feelin rather happy n open this past week. I try to get my mind off things n try nt 2 think so much. Tryin nt to worry abt this n tat. Tryin not to bother n care so much. Cos thinkin to such extend really pains me. Whn u think too much over every single detail, worryin over e slightest possible hint tt it was e end, it makes e heart feels as if its compressed n is abt to stop. Jus cos i don show concern doesnt mean i don care, i still do. Jus tt sometimes i try to deceive myself tt i don really care so tt e pain wont be tat unbearable. I knw tat all this is jus a fascade. Its temporary but its better thn nth i guess...At least for now baz.
My BaBy DiNo
(( 10:22 PM ))
Monday, July 11, 2005
TOday woke up at Serangoon. Jus painted the house on sat so it still smells. Woke up everything as per normal. Then Dad fetch me to Sengkang station on the way to work. We knew that there was a shorter way to the station besides the route taken by bus 159. But i guess there was some miscommunication btw mum and us which caused us ot turn earlier than it should be. In the end, we ended up i also don know where. As i was running late, dad jus stopped me at the nearest LRT where i took the train to Sengkang. Toot was already quite impatient as she cannot be late for her class. Was quite 'fierce' when i met her...She went to cut her hair yest. Looked quite interesting..Guys maybe u should take a look..=)
During the 3-hr break, went to eat 1st at 11. Then went lib with Matl grp to do research. At 1pm, went for a swim when Nic PS me for his gym. It was quite a struggle to complete 10 laps, was still feelin quite weak after recovery. But at the changin room, i felt quite good. Felt alot more refreshed. =) After changin, ate 2 slices of bread that i brought from home and went for my next class.
Went straight home after sch at 3pm. Reached home at 4 whn i on the com to finish my report. Tried to catch up and copied those notes tt i hav missed. At 530, went over to Suntec to meet the Nobel Club members. Ended up only Shao Min, Wen Xu, Yong Qi, Josh n I turned up, where 4 of us r frm SP. Hahaz. Went 4 dinner whn we chatted abt the future of e club n other stuff. =)
Thn at 1930, went back to Bishan for my dental appointment. Reached thr at 8 n i stilll had to wait for another 45min for my Mum to finish hers. Mine took only 20 min with the addition of flouride at the end. Yucks ehz, the taste was quite sucky. After tt, whn 4 supper b4 headin home. Finished up the report n went to bed at 0130. Next day got 8am lab...
My BaBy DiNo
(( 1:12 AM ))
Friday, July 08, 2005
Actually had a 3 hour class today but teacher cancelled a 2-hr lesson. Err..I don think anyone in e rite frame of mind will travel all e way thr for a 1-hr lesson laz...=P
Slacked at home in e morning still havin sore throat. Thn at 12, went dwn to my FYP proj office at seletar airbase. It was quite tedious, had to take mrt thn 2 bus addin tt e 2nd bus comes like once in 45 min. Talked abt proj stuff till abt 5pm whr i rushed off back to sch for my trialz...
Sq Trial Epi 7(finale)...
Reached sch at ard 1830 n saw tat some of them were quite surprised to c me..hahaz..Thn saw bday boy referreeing for ppl had i go wished him..=) After hangin ard for awhile, i went to change. I didnt managed to play with joshua as he was rushin off to church so ended up playin with Jian Hui, Marc Lam n Wuhao with scores 2-0, 1-2, 2-0. All e while in e court i was feelin cold, practically shiverin. Was rather weak but i jus pushed myself laz. In e end, jus managed to scrap into e team with 5-Josh, 6-Jyh Yong, 7-Marc Lam, 8-David, 9-Jie Wei, 10-Yong Qi, 11-Me. We will all be trainin together. Closer to e IVP, no. 8, 9, 10, 11 will compete again to choose e best 2.
After tat we went to Clementi for dinner at 11pm after Alvin gave us a biefing on e future of our team. Was practically swallowin food. At abt 1120, we left. Fel, Angie, YQ n I ran to catch e JE train. Fel got off at bukit batok which was jus 2 stops away, thinkin tat i still had 20 more stops to go...=X Thn e voice in e train said tat it will terminate at AMK. Ehz, tats 2 stops b4 Braddell. So gt off at AMK n went down to ask e staff n he said tat tat was e last train le. So went out, cross e road and took 88 home. Reached home at 1245...=)
Hey guys, trainin will be startin nxt week n its defintely gonna be tougher than ever. I don knw wats wrong but suddenly it seems tat my whole schedule r packed like sardines le. So guys better manage ur time well k...
DeNiSe - U r 1 bz ger n with this squash trainin, guess u r going 2 b busier thn ever. Take care of urself n try to rest more n DONT fall sick. If nt well pls speak up n stop watever u're doin. And finally pls go c doc, its uncommon for u to hav these spells n u knw it. Pls fear not n seek e truth... =)
HuI WeN - Congrats in being amongst e top ladies in e squash trials. This has come to show tat your hardwork paid off!! =) U r also v stress laz. Seein u rushin most of e time here and thr. Try to manage ur time k? Must enjoy abit too. Watch more movies and squash more!! =)
WeI SiAn - Heyz Ger..Come to think of it, I m in e same pos as u too!! hahaz..Last place in e team n still hav to compete again sometime later. But its nt e end so don be too upset or threatened. Jus train hard n focus on ur goals k. "Victory belongs to those who believe it e most, believe it e longest" - Pearl Harbour. =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 2:20 AM ))
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Sq Trial Epi 5/6...
I've gt no idea how i fair cos i was forced to skip them due to me fallin ill. Still gt 6 matches to go. Sigh..Don think i can make it to e team le. Guys, don remind me...*SiGh*...
Yest, planned to go 4 lab n trials even tho gt MC. Thn due to objections frm ppl ard, i didnt go 4 trials but i still went to sch. Actually, went cos wanna see hw toot doing. Apparently she didnt eat anything e day b4 so i was thinkin tt i hav 2 b down 2 make sure she does. Reached at 12, but didnt eat anything. Toot went to lib while i went for my lab at 1. 3pm, went lib in search 2 find her thr, practically freezin. E cold was slowly causin me to stone. Suddenly felt tt my fever was comin back till toot said lets go eat.
Went down to FC1, was practically empty so went to FC2 instead. Ate chicken rice. Toot was feelin rather stressed up lately due to all e approachin deadlines; was sort of havin a feelin of givin up. Gave her e "DoN't QuIt" card as i think she needs it more thn me. On e way back to lib, toot was behavin rather strangely-walkin slower n goggier thn normal. Wondered wats wrong. In e lift, toot said her blood pressure suddenly dropped.
In e lib, i insisted tt she goes home to study whn she wanted to stay on Alone to mug. Jus doesnt feel at ease after seein wat happened.
Along e way, dropped-by squash courts. Alvin was thr quite sianz, seein tt only 2 yr 1s turned up for trainin. After a short chat, went home with YQ n his friend along. YQ was with us till Serangoon. Quite alot of laughter in e train..=)
After YQ left, send toot home. Had some misunderstandin somewhere but glad tt it was settled. After tt, had to rush home to make time for e Deer-horn-soup frm e medical hall.
Today, didnt go to sch. Fever was down but got sore throat. Fear tt e fever will be back again but i guess i will be fine le.. =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 10:09 AM ))
Monday, July 04, 2005
Last nite was walkin home frm sengkang station. It was a 40-min walk..Ok ok, i knw it may sounds quite crazy but i jus wanna spend sometime alone, thinkin of wat i hv been doin for e week...Reached home at 2030. Parents were watchin e NKF charity show. So i sat down n ate dinner n watch tv; was quite tired after e walk...
Was chargin my hp whn Nic called. E phone was hot so i used e loudspeaker. As e volume was soft, i still had to pressed it against my ear. After abt 5 min on e line, i was feelin rather hot n giddy n told Nic to talk another time. Suddenly i realised tt i had a fever comin up n guess it was caused by e hp radiation or something. Sux man, don get Panasonic hp...=X
Went 2 bed early at abt 12am. Was feelin v hot. At abt 3 pm, my worst fears had arrived; i gt a fever. Switched off e aircon n turned on e fan. I was feelin as if i was in hell with fire everywhere. Its been quite awhile since i felt anything tt xtreme.
To make things worst, it rained in e mornin. I was practicallly shiverin bt i kept it frm my parents. I hv a bad(or is it gd??) habit of rather sufferin in silence by nt tellin anyone thn to make them worry. Its only whn i feel tt i am in e verge of breakin down had i told them. Keepin quiet n endurin e muscle aches, Dad said he'll fetch me 2 Sengkang station as it was rainin. Reached there early..was shiverin, immoblie n feelin hot. Waited 4 Toot at e station in e wind. My head felt as if an inferno was burnin inside.
On e train, it was nt tt bad. Was quite crowded so wasnt feelin tt cold. Met up with Nic n Maddie along e way. I was v quiet as my throat was pain n i didnt 1 2 spread 2 anyone. Had a 5 min nap with Nic yakkin beside me...=)
In cls, it was freezin. Nose was practically runnin away. Feelin cold on e outside bt warm on e inside. Went out of cls durin intervals; no difference. It was windy n e only refuge was e toilet. Pee quite a number of times as i wasnt perspirin in e xtreme cold. At 11, ate Ban Mian 4 lunch; didnt feel better 1 single bit. Supposed 2 meet up 4 FYP discussion at 12 to settle stuff n clear things up. Was waitin in e wind again. Thn went to LT. I was v quiet n didnt talk much; couldnt even concentrate on wat we r discussin. Stoned for 2 hours tt seems like 2 yrs. Went 4 MD lect at 1430; 30 min late. Was sufferin in e cold again...=(
After sch, met up with toot. Was waitin 4 her at FC4 had i bought Dao Suan as i was hungry n cravin 4 swt stuff.
Toot accompanied me 2 e doc's at TPY. In e train, was refrainin frm talkin; don wanna spread 2 her. Was feelin as if my head was in e oven bt my body in e freezer. Endured e 40 min ride with toot askin me "hey, u ok??" every 3 min. =)
Waited 4 abt 40 min for our turn at e doc's. Toot was beside me all e while. I was rather energetic, was communicatin with toot by typin messages on my hp n showin 2 her. She asked, "Can u behave like wat sick ppl do n slp??" Sometimes its only whn we r ill had we knw e importance of e ppl ard u. Even tho i was still feelin as if in hell, jus cos of ur presence made me feel tt i hv something xtra tt i can push on, tt e sky suddenly seems brighter...=)
After doc, toot sent me home. It was rather weird as it was always e other way ard. Wanted 2 send her 2 mrt bt she refused.
At home, took temp. It was 39.2^C. I was shocked at e figure. Took med n went 2 bathe had it went down 2 38.2^C.
Now in front of e com, i am feelin better le. Was recallin e moments at e doc's. Somewat it reminded me of e day i sent toot to e doc's. Thnx toot, for being there 4 me whn i needed u most...=)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 6:48 PM ))
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too.That's love."Rebecca- age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy -age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."Danny - age 7
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."Bobby - age 7
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."Noelle - age 7
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."Mark - age 6
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."Jessica - age 8
Kids r nt Naive..They r jus god's gift to us, reminding us of e simple yet beautiful things in life...
My BaBy DiNo
(( 5:45 PM ))
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Sq Trial Epi 4...
Thank god i hav gt no injuries this time. But muscle aches are still present, with a couple of bruises on my legs. Alrite, most of e yr 1s n yr 2s r done with; so now left with e better players. Played with Yong Qi, Kun Zhi, Samuel n David. Score was 2-1, 2-0, 2-0, 0-2. Yong Qi's match was gd..it was close n tight n rather exciting. All in all, i jus won by a scrap; i wld say i was rather lucky laz..=) KZ's match was fine. Samuel actually didnt want 2 play as i guess he's rushin off or something but in e end he agreed. Wasnt feelin really gd as we progress into e match. He was rather upset n pissed; couldnt really perform. Whn e match ended, he was rather devastated n left e court after shakin hands. I felt dam bad, don know wat i can do 2 help so i jus left him alone. =( Match with David was disastrous. Havin lost a total of 6 pts now, i really hav great doubts of me gettin into e team. Could this be e end?? With Joshua comin in strong, will i be kicked out?? Guess i will need 2 focus more le...=X
My BaBy DiNo
(( 12:26 AM ))