Saturday, October 29, 2005
TiRed TiRed...For the past week after my grandpa's wake, it has been trainin trainin n more trainin. Legs gettin stiffer and stiffer and e most horrible thing is my shoe, startin to worn out, has cause much soreness and pain to my feet. Guess my hard work paid off. Could somehow feel my strokes and game play improving slightly but i am still searching for my style and personality in squash. I need to be more consistent n at e same time flexible to the opponents' style. IVP is only 1 week away n am currently doin watever i can to improve n search for my identity. All e best to SP squash team in e up comin matches!!
Watched Transporter 2 on Thurs. Watched Transporter 1 abt a dozen times le, it was a nice show. But to my amazement, e 2nd show was actually better then e 1st. =) Audi A8 W12 6.0 litre...AHH...but the butt not really nice laz. =P Quite fictional la the show, i mean somethings cant really happen in real life and even if it did, probably after 300 takes baz. Anyway who cares la, its jus a movie jus enjoy it laz...=P
My BaBy DiNo
(( 5:33 PM ))
Friday, October 21, 2005
ThiS WeEk...(2/2)
Today, planned to wake up at 715 n go sch practice shots again. But in e end, woke up at 945. I was tired, really didnt feel like goin to sch but i pushed myself up cos i knw tt i hav already wasted yest doin nth much.
Reached sch at abt 1125. Got e keys frm Uncle David's wife. Muscles were aching frm yest's xtra long trip round e neighbourhood. Took e ball out n started hittin it. Cant really conc. Drives were like shit, esp forehand. It was only 1 hr later tt i decided to leave. Figured tt no pt trainin whn u r tired cos all e shots also like shit. Whn to bathe n grabbed a bite at FC 4. Thn head down to Lib - which is whr i am now. =)
Abt to leave soon. Tml will be a BZ day. Its my Ah Gong's 7th day. Jus hope tt e tears will be able to wash e pain of losing a friend, a father, an uncle, a colleague, a father-in-law, a husband n a grandpa while e memories live on...
My BaBy DiNo
(( 3:26 PM ))
ThiS WeEk...(1/2)
I Hav been rather BZ this week. I was back home for the past 5 days after 12am. Life is short, fragile n unexpecting. These 5 days, i hav been thinkin and hav sorted out tt we shouldnt bear grudges, its too tiring. Guess jus be happy baz...=)
Was unable to go for trainin this whole week. Hav to skip tml's friendly too. Went to sch to practice shots alone on Wed. Reached abt 920 but entered court at abt 10 cos unable to get Mohan. Practiced for abt 1.5 hours thn went to bathe. Warm water runnin down my body - V shiok..=) Thn grabbed a bite n went to Lib to do FYP.
Yest, was restin at home. Slept til 1045 thn ate breakfast. Watched Initial D whn Dad called to ask if i was home. Thn he made a trip back and watched TV with me n cooked instant mee. After lunch, he left for work n i went to slp again. Woke up at 2pm n did some A maths n some revision while listening to Lin JJ on e stereo. At abt 4, decided to go for a run. Ran frm home all e way to e 2nd busstop b4 Sengkang station. Along e way, was stopped at e junction. I rested by leanin my hand on e traffic light. It was sticky. I lift up my hand and found it black. Ahh..They jus repainted it. Wah don know wat paint is tt ehz, dam smelly. So no choice had to head for Compass Point's toilet.
Wah, it sticked like glue manz. Rubbed til hand red le the black marks stil thr. N it still stinks like hell. AH..forget is laz, thn i headed back home via CPP's back door.
Don knw wats on my mind but i missed a turn. Ok laz, i am bad at directions. Thn i ran into a place i don regconise at all. Soon i came to a dead end so i jus carried on runnin along e pavement. Worried n gettin tired, i asked a Lady pushin a pram. "Eh, whr is Buangkok Green ahz??". "Buangkok Green ahz?? Wah V far away ehz!! U take 156 can reach."...Ehz i don stay at Buangkok Green laz. I stay further down n, take bus?? I didnt bring anything except for my house key. I asked, "Thn whr's Sengkang Station??". "Oh u jus head straight can le." So i did and i found out tt i hav jus travelled one lap round a block of flats n ended up at e same stop..Dam Gundu...=
It was gettin late. Dad comin back at 530. So i took short runs in btw walks jus to shorten e travellin time. Luckily e weather was cool n was abt to rain or else i'll die in e blazin heat. Reached home at 1725, 25 min later thn planned. Went to check my HP. Gt a sms. "See u downstairs at 1745 instead...Dad" OK!! So i went to bathe n waited downstairs... =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 3:15 PM ))
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Woke up at 715. Got Nobel trainin at SP at 9am. Reached thr at 920 with NiSe but no one was thr. Mohan, person-in-charge of e court keys was nt thr too. Called his HP 29 times but all i gt was a voice msg, a little ger singin an indian song in, i think, baby language baz. Hear til sianz also no one ans. Thn NiSe n i went FC 3 to grab something. Sab smsed me at 10 sayin tt she jus woke up. Eh..given e current situation i told her not to come laz..Hahaz..Abt 15 min later, Huiwen called sayin tt 2 courts were opened by another Indian guy. Did some drills with Nai Lin, with Dan as coach whereas e other court, Joseph was coachin Huiwen, NiSe n Yimin.
After several sets of rally, had a game with Dan. 1st set-lost. 2nd set-lost. After tt went out of e court. Had a mini lecture frm Dan.
"Y did u give up? All e tough trainin u've been thru will only shine in your games. Is this wat u hav trained to become?!" Thr's much more than this but this e main overview. i knw rite frm e start tt my mental game was v v weak. I get affected by moods alot. I can play v well in 1 set, but get thrashed in e next jus cos my mum said she cooked dinner le whn i promised my friends tt i'll b eatin with them. After a quiet moment alone under e fan, i've decided to hav a 1 set rematch with Dan, i was determined tt i wld put in my best. I won e 1st 2 pts thn e rest was give away again. Somehow i cant seem to conc. After tt, lost 9-2.
Whn i went out of e court, Dan admitted tt he felt e pressure frm me durin e 1st 2 pts. If only i had hung on til e end. I need to change, i need to be more resistant to e surroundin, i need to improve.
AFter tt at abt 12 plus, went home n use com. But b4 tt, went to Emi Cakes to buy bday cake for my grandma, her bday today. Thn at 6, went out to eat with e rest of relatives. Now back at home, in front of e com again. I need to make myself useful, do some readin n revision. Ok tats my plan for e rest of my hols. =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 11:08 PM ))
Saturday, October 08, 2005
E beauty of LiFe...
Sometimes in a person's life, thr r bound to be ups n downs. Life is like a sine wave. Durin the Ups, guess e least we can do is to treasure everything tt we 'currently' hav. Durin e downs, pray n try nt to let it bother u tat much n at e same time, learn as much frm it as possible n look forward to e next Up. Cos life has to carry on, this cycle will too carry on n sometimes, the Downs seem so much longer then e Ups n feelins of givin up n losin hope sets in. But note one thing, it has always been in equilibrium, meanin tt e Ups r always equal with e Downs in 1 way or another. Its complacency n perspective tt we sometimes see e downs as longer n tougher. Its durin these times which nature has to take its hand n try to destroy or at least lower e complacency tt grew over e gd times. Thr's nth much we can do but to learn frm each experience n to better cope with it. Even on our dyin bed, e learnin nv ends.
I pass time by thinkin of stuff, e gd n e bad. Sometimes i think too much and it really affects me n my life n most of all, e ppl ard me. At times whn i am quiet, starin into space n lightly smilin, i will be thinkin of something nice, those gd memories. Tho quite rare, it does happens. =) At times whn i am jus quiet, i will be thinkin of stuff tt r nt tt ideal. I'll hv a sense of insecurity, unsureness n helplessness n e feelin is e exact opp frm e former. At times like this, i'll try to get it off my mind, divert my attention - runnin, sports, piano, music or even readin, cos if i were 2 b left with nth to do, tt feelin could jus be too overwhelming...
Thr r many things in life which we hav no control of n sometimes a change in mindset n perceptive will make e terriblest thing seems nt too bad. Many times we feel wat we want to feel, see wat we want to see n react how we want to react - we control who we r...Guess tats e Beauty Of Life baz...
At this pt of time, i would like to intro my BaBy DiNo (it shall be a female baz..=) ). At times whn i m Up, i would like to spend n share it with her, seein her smilin for me. At times whn i am down, she would b thr to giv a pat on e shoulder, showin tt reassurin smile to brighten e day. Even tho most of e times i was dwn cos of her, i didnt blame her. It was me, i hv yet to learn hw to cope n show my feelins bt i can say tt i made several improvements since e day i met her.
Over this past yr, i would like to thank my BaBy DiNo for jus being There. Jus to let u knw, i really don know wats installed for e future or wat will happen or if i were to change cos e thing is no one knows. Whether it will be sad, depressed, hurt, anger or happy, romantic, peaceful n joy. Watever it is, jus to let u know tt i will do e least i can do - treasure wat i hav rite now, treasure every moment as if it were e last. At times whn i seemed like i don care, deep inside i still do, jus tt u hav to bare with me cos i am still learnin...
=)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 4:43 PM ))
I m BaCkz...=) - Sq Camp Day 3/3
I woke up at 550 n went to e livin rm. Oh boy, bodies were scattered everywhere. Evry1 except Marc Lam was slpin. He was starin blankly at e tv n listenin to his ipod. JK n Esther were on e couch, Josh on e floor with a cushion 4 his head, YQ on e sofa chair, NiSe n Wenxu each on 3 chairs, Jyh Yong behind e pillar n Samuel behind another pillar. Shortly, Xuan went to e livin rm too, think i accidentally woke him up baz..=P Bt thn he continued slpin with a cushion. Boy was it freezin, it was rainin heavily. Havin nth to do, took out my Zen n listened n stone. I was actually half conscious on e chair. Thn i went to slp on e floor after Jyh went to e room to slp. Didnt really slp laz, jus wonderin whn will e rain stop. Finally, it was down to v light drips frm e clouds tt i wore my sandals n took a walk.
Whn i came back, NiSe n wenxu was up. So e 4 of us, includin Marc Lam went out for breakfast. Ate nasi lemak, e 4th time in these 3 days. After tt, went to search for breakfast for e rest, ended up with instant mee n button mushrooms..=)
Back at e chalet, more n more ppl were up frm their beauty slp. NiSe volunteered to make e breakfasts for them with e help of Xu n Lam. After tt, we were playin Asshole Dai Di along with Yan Han, YQ, Josh n Nise. Til abt 1pm, we made a leave frm e chalet. =)
At this pt, i would like to thank - 1) e organisers, Xuan n Huiwen 4 organisin n plannin this entire chalet, 2) Nise for takin care of our meals n well being, 3) Josh for e cyclin, chats n games, 4) Ken for your Ghostly tales, 5) Wanwei for your Subway, 6) LLY for your Underground 2, 7) YQ for your Hokkien Ah Bengness, 8) Everyone helpin out for e BBQ n 9) Everyone else who played a part in makin Squash chalet 2005 this great...=)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 3:18 PM ))
I m BaCkz...=) - Sq Camp Day 2/3
After slpin 4 abt 2 hrs, i had to wake up ~ it was Freezing!! Woke up, most ppl were still slpin. Shortly after, Josh woke up too. Seein tt most of thm were still 'snorin', we decided to take a morin bicycle ride. It was cold, set off at early 7am with our jackets on. We cycled for abt 3 hrs plus n was perspirin like hell due to e sweater n e scorchin sun. Was also learnin how to jump up curbs frm Josh - quite tirin..hahaz..
Whn we went back, breakfast was served. Our dearest NiSe was swt tt she made breakfast n left some bread n Milo for e both of us ~ Touched..=) After breakfast, NiSe, Josh n i went for another bicycle ride. Went up to e beach n managed to cycle to e other end. Tho was hot n tired, it was great cyclin thru trees and trees. Nise wanted to try e Swing at a playground along e way. Could c tt she was really enjoyin herself, Ok laz, admit tt my childhood was not tat childhoody...=(
After tt, went to hav lunch thn went back. Oh boy my butt hurts like hell manz...Got a couple of bruises n cuts here n thr too. At abt 3 plus, took a nap, ok laz a rather short 1. After tt, went walkin ard with NiSe whn Josh sms me if i wanna play soccer. So we met up at e club. In e end i didnt play, was tired n don feel like playin. So NiSe n i went back to e chalet. At abt 6, they were already startin e fire, thn Sab n Ken arrived. We were eatin n chattin but at abt 8, ken, Yongqi, NiSe n i went into 1 of e guys room as Ken was narrating some ghostly tales in e dark. It was a long time since i heard 1 of those n i found tt it was rather fun..=) Sab was in e room after a few moments as thr was a cockroach flyin in e livin room. Thn in e "ghostly" room, she blasted her mp3 hopin tt it'll block out e ghostly experiences..Hahaz..=)
After tt, Xuan came in n introduced "Murderer-in e dark"..It was e same murderer jus tt it was more excitin n fun..=) Few minutes past, Sab was complainin abt pain in her stomach. Ken being as carin, sent her home. Thn we continued n thr was much laughter. NiSe spooked whn she got e same card 4, 5 times in a row, maybe it was meant to be....HEhehe...=P
At abt 1, we went out to watch tv. Thr was this gundu show which mixes seductive women with ghostly elements. Watched til e end n still don know wat e story was abt bt could tell tt every1 was abit horny...=P
Along e way, NiSe complained tt her left shoulder hurts n it seems tt it was rather serious. Hey ger, be more careful alrite...After tt horney show was some taiwanese game show. Ok la, quite funny, big diff frm e previous show. Durin 1 commercial, i went to bathe n thn came back to cont watchin n laughin. At abt 3+, after my hair dried, i went to slp-beside Xuan.
My BaBy DiNo
(( 3:02 PM ))
I m BaCkz...=) - Sq Camp Day 1/3
Alrite guys, i knw tat its been dam long since i last updated it. Life was quite tough without a com n heard rumours tt this com of mine is soon dyin le...Anyway, i better blog some stuff down 1st b4 my com say its last gdbyes..
Had squash camp on 3, 4, 5 Oct. On 3rd, Mon, went to nic's place for FYP proj. Met up at Tanah Merah, waitin for Nic to fetch us to his place. While waitin, a downpour started n we saw Anglican High(i think) students runnin for shelter. Grps of gers in full white uni ran to e mrt station to seek shelter. Ehh...could say tt we had to try to tame Alex b4 he turned into a werewolf...=)
Reach nic's place at abt 2 n started doin up our logbook. Ended at 4 plus where we went to Sempang Bedok for some food. Thn after fetchin emi back, we went to nic's place, slack awhile thn went to our class chalet, which was at e same place as our squash..=)
Our class was unit 'I' n squash was 'B'. Reached at 6 plus n was shocked tt no 1 was at 'I' so we drove ard n went to e toilet at e hotel..=) Slacked awhile at squash' n played Underground 2 on LLY's com. Thn at abt 9 plus went over to 'I' to 'steal' some food n hang ard. At abt 11+, Nise, Josh n i went for a walk to e beach n sat on e bench. Chatted for a couple of hours under e wind. Nise's life was v much different frm josh n i, n i hav learned 1 thing, thr is no pt in comparin cos many a time, u may want something tt someone has badly, thinkin tt its wat u want but tt someone would most likely be thinkin e same as u too, he may want ur life tt badly too. On e whole, we may nv be satisfied so instead of findin e 'perfect' life, y nt jus live ur life to its own best...=)
After tt, went back to squash' chalet n played cards n watched tv till late. It was only till 3 plus am did i went to slp. =)
My BaBy DiNo
(( 2:28 PM ))